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[Nov. 30th, 2009|12:10 am] |
i need to run. i nee dto get back into running gear or im going to hate myself come january 10th.
but its hard to be mad at myself for not running when the reason im not is because im doing schoolwork.
its a conundrum i need to solve.
lesss than 2 weeks. |
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[Nov. 28th, 2009|11:54 am] |
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if we win tonight, i might cry. that's how much i want it. |
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[Oct. 28th, 2009|09:29 am] |
i feel GOOD.
if i had tried to run 10 miles 3 months ago, i would have died. i ran 10 miles last night and feel FANTASTIC. i love being in shape :).
Half marathon in 2.5 weeks!!!! eeeee!
midterms. |
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[Jun. 12th, 2009|10:51 am] |
ive been home for less than 24 hours and im already bored. oh yay
minnesota sunday |
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[Jun. 7th, 2009|11:06 pm] |
this is my head right now
"poopy poop poop poop coastal geomorphology ridges and runnels and wetland and deltas and estuaries and sand entrainment and coastal dunes and rocky coasts and coastal engineering blah blah blah argentina y españa y testimonios y la negritud y la amnesia y POR QUE PENSABA QUE FUE UNA IDEA BUENA PARA ESTUDIAR ESPANOL PARA MI ESPECIALIZACION poopy poopy poopy platyhelminthes and choindrichthyes and nematodes and annelidas and echinoderms and mammals and aves WHY THE HECK DID I SCHEDULE 3 FINALS IN 24 HOURS??????"
seriously, my brain is like word vomit, only really intelligent smart vomit right now.
3 finals in 24 hours of each other is the dumbest thing ever.
at least in 60 hours it will be OVER. |
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[May. 12th, 2009|03:41 pm] |
i am a horrible student.
i need to be reminded of the real reason i am at school.
i suck at studying.
but i love life. |
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[Apr. 15th, 2009|08:52 pm] |
i think i have a serious cell phone problem.
im about to be on my 7th phone of the school year. |
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[Apr. 14th, 2009|03:32 pm] |
so ive had an exceptionally productive and good day, which is awesome since this quarter sucks and those are rare.
this morning i worked my last work shift from 6-9 am and did my spanish reading for the day (ive divided it up so its less daunting and manageable) and then went to class and then recorded and sent in my audition for NIB (national intercollegiate band) for KKPsi National convention and realized i dont really suck at flute like i thought i would after so long, then i helped the assistant band director with stuff and found out i got selecte to go to Tennessee in september for the football game which im very excited about! after this class i am going to log my first hour of recruitment crew for the year and then doing my B/S group and going to a service meeting for psi and studying for my midterm on thursday. hopefully going to the gym too, but thats somewhat doubtful due to time restrictions. i will also finish the arrowbear app at some point tonight. woo!oh! and i also called and postponed my jury duty to the summer from the end of may when ill still be in school.
my summer is going to be insane as always.
i will be in 9 different states at some point over the summer. California, Minnesota, Tennessee, Arizona, Montanta, Hawaii, Utah, Nevada, and Idaho.
My daddy and i are road tripping to Yellowstone for our family reuinion. I will also be doing camp twice and going to National Convention for Psi, Minnesota to help my grandma recover, Hawaii with Malia, and Tennessee for band. THIS IS NUTS.
before then, im camping twice, beach housing once, and finishing the quarter with passing grades (somehow).
I was officially accepted to my study abroad program so I will officially be in Santiago, Chile January-July 2010 and then Peru to do macchu pichu!
uhhh life is crazy. i love it though :). honestly, i am so lucky to be where i am and have the amazing network of loving friends and brothers up here at school. <3 |
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[Apr. 2nd, 2009|05:11 pm] |
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i want to run a half marathon |
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[Feb. 27th, 2009|03:33 pm] |
ive decided it was time for me to do the 25 things thing, but im doing it here instead of facebook.
1. I still really hate what's happened to my group of friends from high school. I hate that last night when i was talking to a friend at ucla who is from davis i consciously said "a girl i went to high school with goes to davis" rather than "one of my best friends from high school goes there". i hate it. it sucks. i wish things had just stayed how they were. i hate that one of them is effing her life up royally and we cant do anything about it because shes just vanished from our lives. i really miss the old times when it was good. yes the 5 that are left are still amazing, abnd because of all the crap thats happened i know that these five will be in my life forever. it just sucks that it all had to happen and i try and act like it doesn't bother me anymore but it really, really does. mainly, for one of them at least, i just dont understand how someone could hurt someone else that badly without even glancing back. alas, it is how it is.
2. I have changed so much since coming to college. I'm much mroe ambitious now, and much more comfortable with who i am and what im doing with my life. its great. thats not to say ive figured everything out, but im getting there.
3. I never had a best friend until coming to college. I always had several, but not the way i do now. i was never good at opening up, and im definitely still not. but now i have two people that i trust with almost everything, and my amazing roommate and best friend who knows me inside and out and i can tell anything to and have amazing times with. im so thankful for the friendships ive made.
4. I came to the recent realization that the brotherhood aspect of my fraternity is a lot like arrowbear. its great.i'm not one to write long sprawling messages about what camp means to me, mainly because its really personal and i cant put it into words. but its truly amazing to have something so much like it that lasts all year. i love them both.
5. im afraid of relationships and generally, my romantic history is full of me messing things up. for the most part, we've gotten through it but i still hate what it did to ryan and i. i miss him being part of my life and know its not all my fault, and actually mainly his really but it still sucks. i think that when the right thing comes along, i will know and this fear will vanish.
6. joining band at ucla was one of the best decisions of my life. the people are amazing. the experiences are amazing.
7. on a similar note, kappa kappa psi has transformed how i live my life in such an amazing way. i work so much harder in every aspect of my life now, and its amazing to give back to music. i cant really explain it to people not involved, but its phenomenal and so rewarding.
8. im studying abroad in Santiago, Chile next january-july and then hiking macchu pichu with my parents. it will be one of the craziest experiences in my life and exhilarates me whenever i think about it.
9. i love my major. i love being able to ID tropical fish families and spew out random facts about tropical dry forests and rainforests and the tropics and the environment in general. ive become a mega-nerd when it comes to biogeography. i love it.
10. that being said, i have no idea what i want to do after undergrad with this major. for simplicity sake at the moment, im thinking grad school in conservation or ecology, but one of my big goals this year is to get a better idea about this.
11. i've recently realized how incredibly lucky ive been in life. ive traveled some amazing places and experienced some incredible stuff. i also have an incredibly loving family and great friends. i complain a lot but its only minor things, and i am so lucky to have the people and experiences in my life that i have.
12. i want long hair.
13. i really am addicted to burts bees. the word addicted doesnt even really begin to describe this. just spend a day with me.
14. it bothers me when people are stuck in high school mentalities. yes it was a good time. yes i miss aspects of it. but college is soooooo much better.
15. kelli, malia, heather, and elisa mean so much to me. weve been through a lot together and its made me appreciate them so much more. theyre amazing friends and i miss them everyday.
16. jess and courtney are the best friends in the world. theyre always here for me, regardless of how petty or heavy the dilemna may be. or to luagh ridiculously about pictures of robert pattinson or just be silly. i seriously love them and will miss them SOOOOO MUCH next year when im abroad.
17. i am very easily stressed out. grades, papers, tests, reading, projects, psi stuff. i stress a lot.
18. i cannnot believe that i am nearly half way done with college. that i have not lived at home for 2 years. this truly befuddles me. what the heck.
19. i may not go to church very often, or act incredibly religous, but i believe in god and was raised in an amazing church possible.
20. i wish i talked to and saw my brother more often.
21. i love john mayer. he is such an amazing guitar player and singer. when im sad or stressed or happy or whatever and i turn on his music, it is like he is talking to me. i love everything about his music.
22. it really frustrates me when people dont respond to emails. im also very excited to get a blackberry tonight. i love email.
23. these are getting progressively worse and shorter. 25 is a lot. im very excited to go to hawaii with malia this summer. i miss her and its hawaii and her and there will be tropical fish that i can ID and be a nerd and it will be so many things i love! yay!
24. my relationships mean so much to me. i think thats why its so hard for me to let people in. but it also means that the friendships and relationships i do have mean sooo much to me. i think i like it more this way. and this is something that changed dramatically upon college.
25. i said i had no idea about my future but really i have a few ideas. i love national geographic. i think it would be amazing if my career could be that i do research for or write for or take pictures for national geographic. doing field research for them is definitely my dream career. i feel like ive come so much into my own in these past two years. im comfortable with who i am and where im going and have amazing friendships and the occasional more than friendship.
i love life.
enjoy! |
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[Jan. 28th, 2009|02:06 pm] |
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i think i've been more productive in the last 12 hours than i have been all quarter. |
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[Jan. 27th, 2009|12:16 am] |
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i had an outstanding day. :) |
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[Jan. 26th, 2009|01:30 pm] |
i have a new philosophy for life: im just gonna chill and be happy and see what happens regarding everything.
we'll see how this works. because right now im pretty darn, inexplicably, happy. :) |
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[Dec. 7th, 2008|10:06 pm] |
i am having an emotional breakthrough.
this is good.
i must follow through. |
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[Nov. 17th, 2008|10:56 pm] |
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also i dont think i ever mentioned i got accepted into the EAP program, so im officially going abroad next year! |
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[Nov. 17th, 2008|10:47 pm] |
i cant remember the last time i had a break to do ANYTHING.
im so busyyyy. annnd im trying to find time to run every day since im doing the turkey trot with malia. and my ankle is all effed up. woohoo.
so i have a midterm wednesday and a research paper due next wednesday, a finals 2 wednesdays and 2 more finals the next week. not to mention spanish hw all the time as well at stats.
plus kkpsi stuff up the wazooo, which i love.
plus band stuff.
i know i need to rethink my priorities. i need to work on putting school above band, but its hard. im going to get at least a B this quarter and i hate that i think thats bad.
-my life is in LA. i went to lb friday night and there was nothing there for me except my family. its a really weird feeling
-im just going to wait until my life calms down to figure out the BIG question in my life that had been causing me a lot of stress
-my friends are truly the greatest anyone could ask for. I had probably the worst week u can remember having since high school last week, and they were there every step of the way. i cried to them and they didnt even ask me to explain or anything, they were just there.
-ive realized how much psi means to me.
-did i mention my friends are amazing?
and now its time to sleep so that i can awake to another incredibly insane day. 4 more weeks 4 more weeks until 3 weeks without anything school at all!!!!! lets hope i survive.
however, other than being unhealthfully busy, ive realized a lot of stuff recently. |
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[Nov. 9th, 2008|11:20 am] |
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i need to figure this stuff out, and i need to do it fast before i do anything i regret (which may have already happened. . .). |
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[Oct. 29th, 2008|08:44 pm] |
there is absolutely no reason one phone call should have made me so happy and okay.
i was so mad, and they didn't even say sorry.
but it did.
which just makes me more need to figure things out.
this isn't bad. im actually reallly happy to have them back in my life. SO HAPPY. |
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[Oct. 28th, 2008|11:21 pm] |
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there are a lot of things i need to figure out in my life right now. |
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[Oct. 19th, 2008|10:46 pm] |
i had 17 hours of band yesterday.
i feel like the weekend didnt exist.
i have a paper due tomorrow, a midterm wednesday, and leave for cal at midnight on thursday, and all sorts of psi stuff all the time.
im crazy busy.
but i love my life. i love learning. i love friends. :) |
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